Status Anxiety
Published Monday, May 02, 2011 by becs inI haven't write for a long time so what really trigger me to write this post was the contributions of the great day out with my girls.
Being single. Well, being the only one left on the shelf (and I'm proud to admit that I've hit my record: The longest period of me being single. One year and counting), being best friends for ten odd years is normal that they want me to go back on track. Probably wanting me back to 'usual' again. As seeing me being single can be quite a strange thing I reckon. With all honesty, I myself do feel funny too. I never expect myself to be alone for this long. And if you think I'm still in love with the ex-boyfriend that's why I'm not moving on. Please stop. People who knows me well enough knew that I'm never the devoted kind.
Speaking of which, today my unkind twin had just bitch-slapped me for being a slut, cheating the hearts of naive guys. All I say is I'm just following my heart and the guys are just not game for it. Is not my fault when they couldn't keep the passion burning & keep me entertained. And is not like I'm asking a lot. I just need someone to have the same humour level as me (keep me laughing at your silly jokes for at least 3 months & you're safe), decent looking (& not too short) with a stable career. Is this too much to ask for? Anyway, I'm seeing this German dude now. Decent chap, not ugly looking, good career & ready to commit (potential husband type!). How nice to have a chinese-ang mo baby! He's all I could ask for but funnily my heart doesn't turn on. Being that usual slut me, I keep him running on my finger tips. Hoping the heart will get fonder.
Sex. I still felt horrified with the fact that there were actually people scheduling their sex life. One week once, only Friday night or Saturday. Weekdays: Do It Yourself. I can't bloody believe it! OMFG! Where's the passion!?! I had never imagine that sex is actually a routine now for some of my friends. That's one thing I really hate about living in this country, everything is so systematic that subconsciously turning us into robots. You have no idea how bad I wanna get out of here. Sadly, no reply from the CV i sent out 3 weeks ago. Still trying to get a job in Hong Kong where all the luxury big brands headquarters are. Guess I just need to keep trying.
Career. Got a great job opportunity. Assistant Manager. Fuck. I'll be the biggest prick if I accept it. Wouldn't want to elaborate further. Really need some time to think about this. Decision! Decision!
Really need to sleep now. Gotta be a housekeeper again. This time, for 4 days. I'm such a great friend!
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Hey gorgeous great to hear that ya doing good. Don't ya worry b4 you know it somebody's gonna sweep u off your feet giving ur heart beat a skip n u wanting more n if ya wanting a holiday let me know.
Your friend
Xxx