Becs.Lust.Gallery

After the break-up, I happened to bumped into 2 of his friends this week.
They looked at me with this one kind look that actually left me quite disturbed.
That look was almost sympathetic or weird. Anyway, I'm never good at describing.
Seriously, I totally have no interest about what you told them.

With my 101% honesty, i felt so much better now. Guess you were right this time.
I realized I never really needed you in my life except for the ''hotel'' that I've been staying for the past 3 years.
I have no more worries now. Will your heart change like your friends did when you stepped into the work society? Will you dumped me only when I'm 28 years old and left with zero market value? Can I tolerate your crap for the rest of my life?
The reason why I couldn't let it go initially was simply because of one selfish reason.
I hate to go through the entire process again. Need to know that someone all over again. Friggin need to build rappo with the family. Accepting his flaws & bla bla bla. This shit is just too tedious.
Do I miss you? Funnily, I miss the kids more than you.

I still have been keeping mum ever since the break up.
In fact, even some of my good friends have yet know about it.
I guess I'm too old to qualify for those call-them-up-to-wail-about-it. I accept it like a grown up.
FYI, I have yet get myself horrifying drunk & then cry out loud kinda thing.
I'm enjoying the privacy within my space at this point..
I am also very blessed and thankful to those who embraced me when I needed them the most.
Thanks to those who try to match make me as well but it seems like none has work out for me, yet.

I dedicate most of my time at work, worked till 7-8 pm everyday.
Long enough to put my mind off you.
Perhaps God is fair, my love life crumbles but my career is soaring big time.
I'm leaving for London on Thursday. Yes, finally.
London was the only thing that keep me going for so long.
Can't wait...